(The story of my new favourite fairy tale.)
This is what love is. Knowing there is nothing you would ever want to change. Appreciating every word and action; every emotion and event. Taking the truth whole-heartedly and never settling for anything
less.
My heart broke like it has never done before. I pieced together every emotion I felt and had it shattered by a few quick glances. One by one, the pieces are picking themselves up.
My lungs fill with sadness and blood rushes to my head every time I even begin to relive the night.
Unfortunately for me, I?m awesome at reminiscing.
As I walked out of IMUMA, three children each holding onto two of my fingers, my heart filled with a blast of joy and guilt all at the same time. How appreciative these children have become, how close they hold us, how significant they know our work is. How shameful I feel for leaving them alone, how hopeful I am to continue supporting them, and how selfish I feel for wanting to stay and play. I turned to Pinky and told her I couldn?t go; I just wasn?t ready. I don?t even know if I can say I ever really was.
Saidi; a boy about 17. An amazingly talented singer and a simply genuine kid. Never having heard him sing before now, and never having talked to him much before today, I felt badly for not having had
enough time previously, but moreso felt excited that I finally got a chance.
The faces of six very important children have etched themselves into my memory forever. Perhaps because I?ve witnessed their pain, their hope, their sadness, joy, fear, and most significantly – courage.
The six sick children. The four we walked to the clinic every day. A four year old screaming for you from a doctor?s bed really does something to you. So does a one and a half-year old crying into your neck after having had five extremely painful injections. But the joy it brings when each day, you see the infections begin to clear up – it’s inexplicable. The happy walk home – our big family – bananas in hand, skipping down the stoney dirt road back to the child centre.
There?s a look in their eyes that has taught me more than much of what I?d tried so hard to learn on my own.
Nonetheless, the entire IMUMA family has invaded my heart and given me lessons I couldn?t imagine ever forgetting. Juma?s independent nature – extraordinary for a fifteen year old, five year-old Barike?s
incredible bravery, Miki?s energy and crazy Kili?s honest generosity. Every face has its own story, and each its own lesson for me.
The boys at the centre – individuals like none other. There is no one I have ever met like them, and I cannot anticipate ever encountering anyone like them again. Passion, perseverence, hope,
generosity, wisdom, humour, and best of all – happiness – reside in each of their independent and characteristic personalities, yet they cease to impress me with their strength as a single family. Every
dance lesson they teach (check out Matt?s video blog!), every meal they cook, all their work and every project – is created by a collaboration of each member?s incredibly distinct contribution. And you know what? That?s how it should be.
Aside from being our gurus, helpers, volunteers, and translators for the work we were doing, they came to mean so much more than that. Our last night with the boys included fire-eating, jumping through flaming
hoops, and hours of unreal drumming and dancing. It was a show and party put on for us; a night of pure fun, but the most important thing I got out of it was the realization that I had been this happy, this excited, and this impressed all along. The work was never work, and the bad days were always also good. As much as the evening was an extraordinary celebration, it was amazing to be able to say ?This is not the party; the party?s been here all along.?
During a Student Reach – Mtoto Mchuraji huddle towards the end of the night, thank-yous were exchanged, ?come back soon?s were in order, and all our teary-eyed faces grinned, panning the family in
the huddle around us. Only two things that exceeded the amount of sadness in the air that night – the joy in all we?d done in the past three weeks, and hope for the next time we?d be in Bagamoyo. I have
absolutely no doubt I will be back. I know I?ll be in withdrawal from Young Black?s contagious laugh, Kaka Jamesi?s ?shwari? attitude, as well as Kaka Nyola?s crazy dancing. Then there?s Kaka Doye?s ?More fire!?
and Kaka Issah?s wonderful ?Agah! Agah!? singing and dancing I?ll need to see again. I have so much more to learn from Kaka Dickson, and too many long hours of dancing to Kaka Matiga?s amazing drumming.
This is only the beginning of the rest of my life.
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